Monday, October 22, 2007

windy world

VENTURA COUNTY INTERIOR VALLEYS-VENTURA COUNTY COASTAL VALLEYS- LOS ANGELES COUNTY VALLEYS- SANTA CLARITA VALLEY- 454 AM PDT MON OCT 22 2007
...HIGH WIND WARNING REMAINS IN EFFECT UNTIL 3 PM PDT TUESDAY...
DANGEROUS NORTH TO NORTHEAST WINDS 30 TO 45 MPH WITH LOCAL DAMAGING WIND GUSTS TO 70 MPH CAN BE EXPECTED BELOW THE FAVORED NORTHEAST PASSES AND CANYONS.

Todays A-Ha moment:
Air quality was horrible. (Red Flag warning to be exact.) Wind gusts were frightening. Temp was already in the high 70's at 7:30 am. Not what you would call "good running conditions." I decided to go any ways. I started out with no real course in mind. I knew how far I had to go and thought I would just make it up as I went.
Turned the corner onto Seqouia St and the wind was pushing so hard against me I immediatley thought about turning around. I kept going. The debris that was being swirled around was getting into my eyes making in impossible to see. Made it 1 mile. Things were getting easier the further I went. I was able to adapt to my surroundings easier than I thought I would be. Turned up another street. Wind gusts so hard I was having a hard time running straight. Made it 2 miles. Stopped at mile 3 to get a drink from a sprinkler that was shooting straight up in the air thanks to the wind. Just as I bent over to drink- the wind stops. Sprinkler goes directly up my nose and eyes. Nice. Turn the final corner after mile 4 and the wind had stopped. Life was good again.
I knew the air was bad. I knew the wind was blowing strong today. I knew it was hot outside. I thought about how many times in my life I do things knowing how bad the conditions are going to be, but decided to do them any ways. I thought about how many times I don't really have an exact "course" but try and make it up as I go- only to be stuck at "dead- ends" and have to turn around and find another way.
Most importantly I realized that after that first mile, I was getting used to the wind pushing against me. All those things I carry around with me and just accept as my "daily baggage." My insecurities, my flaws, my bad judgement, etc...I had figured out a way to get used to feeling bad about myself as a mother, a sister, a friend, a daughter, a wife, and so on and managed to just go about my day being weighed down like this was normal.
And then the wind stopped. I didn't realize how much that wind was slowing me down until the wind had subsided. The wind stopped and I was able to run faster and feel lighter on my feet. I was able to recognize a difference. I went home with a new gratitude for my Savior who has made it possible for me to not have to carry around my "baggage" that slows me down. I am able to let all of that go and feel lighter than before. Today, I am thankful.

4 comments:

Amber said...

Aren't we lucky to also have life that gives us these oppurtunities where we see with different eyes what has always been in front of us. Doors become windows... I am thankful. Thankful for you sharing. Thankful for the many blessing that are mine.
Have a good day!

the mrs. said...

You are truly an amazing woman,friend, mother... I LOVE YA

The Beardalls said...

I needed to hear this. One of those days, ... actually weeks for me. I do have a lot to be grateful for. Now I just need to get off my lazy-A and run so I can have these ah-ah moments too.

Shalayna said...

You're awesome!!! But you have to know that I was laughing at the whole sprinkler incident :)